LOL, everytime i update is a very long time ago.

Now im having holiday, but it doesn't seem like holiday.
volunteeery project kills it all, i voluneteered,
but i didnt expect it to drain so much time...

now i cant even go out with frens, all day at sch
likeageekonly
sian max la.

ok la, at least it will be in testimonial.
hopefully it will be in. and also able to use for portfolio.

im like suddenly so angry rite now.
now that theres another friend who feels the same way i do.
im not the only one feeling like this.
U MOTHER FUCKING KAMPONG VILLAGERS!!!
always treating my words as crap.
taking me as a joke.
u childish people with childish joke that contains no link nor pun!!!
ARGH!!! DAMN YOU!!

Always saying i like some retarded girl or even worse say i like another guy,
FUCK YOU!!
u've nvr been through wad i did in my secondary school life,
then dun fucking insult my feelings for another individual.

simmering down
i did not do so well for my interview today.
got ur everyday average students mark, slightly more abit.
i guess its peer presure,
that made me continue to group and hang out with u bunch of ****

i should really jus ignore peer presure,
i should really sitck with the ppl i am able to trust.
than 'charismatic' ppl that u cant really trust...

Im told to blog, so i did.

Ok went out finally after 3 freaking weeks of 14hr in sch per day...
i keep pointing out 14 hrs as the main fact, cux i find it ARGHHHH.
i work more than the working class adults!!!!

so anyway i am sad.
i spent 20 freaking bucks on NOT getting a headphone i want.
gotta check out to see if its arcade limited or buy-able,
and the PRICE!!!

yay gonna sleep le. ZNORE ZNORE ZNORE.....

random timing blog, and early in the morning.

School reopen, so much work,
but tats not all.

life doesn't seem that fun anymore,
i used to have more fun in my secondary school days.
feel so sad.
its so boring nowadays,
every outstanding things that happen in class is jus plain normal,
gotta give a fake excited exclamation to show to the baka-s...

Im looking to really do something that i can remember in my life,
something more interesting and meaningful to me,
not ur ordinary hang out, shopping, movie, k-session,
feels like youth is beaing wasted do much,
wanna do as many things i can when i still can play arnd,
after the NS, its all over.
as for dating wise, i duno y but i have this mindset,
to only find someone to date when ur out of NS,
cux after NS u get tied down to work,
getting tied down by one more person dont make a diff anymore.

for now freedom is all im looking forward to.
i got full freedom from parents.
but not full freedom from my mind-fucking mind
internal conflict of ideals in my mind, wad should i do.

Searching for the happy ben in the past...

got back from taiwn le~~

Had a fun trip in taiwan,
Model kits are really cheap over there,
ironically cheaper than in japan, whereby its made in japan...
Got a SD 00 Qan[T], Omegamon(YES!!), Thousand Sunny(holy SHIT!)
Also got some other minor stuffs,
Many food souvenier stuff there is all old people eat de,
nth for myself, and only some 'pineapple tarts' for friends...

Last week of holidays le,
kinda busy with all the model kits, dragonica, and outings.
school reopens and i got no time for all of these anymore =(

And i don't know y but during the P1 period,
i've grown to like Nu metal and punk rock kinda songs ALOT.
it even got stuck to my head for weeks,
cure: listen to chinese song, cux its like totally different worlds apart.

i jus completed my Omegamon like now,
and i on9 now,
will on9 very little cux i have a thousand sunny.

And thanks my frens for the nerf gun, i will bring it out,
if we have a picnic fly kite, bicycle kinda outing.

bye bye, Happy!

This shall be my last post before i go overseas.

Gonna go taiwan tmr noon,
aeroplane again, am not excited.
but the destination, Taiwain, is excited.

few days at home, pokemon and dragonica alot,
time flies too fast when im enjoying something...

gonna be back on the 12th april.

theres a poly chalet probly after i return,
but im a little relucntant,
cux they are no fun,
they like to joke like the caucasians,
says: 'we joke by insulting each other'
when u start insulting them.........
they so petty -.-
how to joke, ah dui~~~

ok no more post for today,
i will look for my omegamon in taiwan,
heard theres budget places.
will also look for other model kits,
look for limited edition exclusive stuff.
look for sourvenirs for friends as well.
as for poly dudes, ok...
they asked me to buy things like free one only,
too bad i not rich spoiled brat like them =(
no money...

Bye bye

Woke up so early today for a holida, that is.

I set my alarm then go sleep,
wake up chiong bath and eat,
see the time was 12.10,
tot i late,
but no one called me to rush me,
rethinking,

HY said it was actually 1pm...
sits here doing nth but blog,
gonna go tamp, but i dun even noe wad to eat there,
and im pok gai,
saving money for taiwan...

Lol, today was a fun day!!

My Birthday, so it was a random meet up,
so i meet YY and GK first to watchm Uchuu Senkan Yamato!!
It was an awesome movie!!!
then we went to meet the rest after that then go marina play pool.

Ok... and GK should have told us earlier that he wanted to go bugis to eat,
because none of us mind going there, the food there oso can,
so we ate le then travel to bugis -.-

oh well, thats the end of the day and im typing rite now. LOL

Kept asking me wad i wanted, lol
of course i wouldn't say la.
its like so imposing on ppl if i say it.
so actually wad i wanted is this,
i shall remind myself on blog and my phone:

Becux this is really my favourite digimon,
like really favourite favourite,
Hahaha, but i guess, even if HY who reads my blog saw this post,
its already over my birthday liao~~~
Its even on my wishlist~~

Im fine with or without a birthday present actually.
cux its like im just happy to go out and slack.
the best thing to do is after a tiring day,
i come home and sit infront of this computer and type and type,
then rest on my comfy bed playing games.

Thats it for today!!

And your birthday wish is just an obligatory one,
i dun really care ba, i guess...

Yay, today is my Birthday.

Firstly.

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday Dear Benjamin,
Happy Birthday to me!!!!!

Woohoo,
but its so creepy tat im singing to myself,
its even creeping myself out.
as if i got split personality O.O
Oh well, wadever,
so my Ah Ma gave me an ang pao, i shall not open it yet~
will be kinda busy these few days and fying off to taiwan on the 7th april.
Trying to learn the guitar.

And thats it. Happy Birthday to me!!

alright, so no one reads this blogs anymore.

and i would not go round talking about my blog.

IF SOMEONE EVER SAW THIS BLOG, YOU ARE BASICALLY READING A TYPED OUT FORMAT OF MY FEELINGS.

saw some zodiac facts about aries on twitter,
guess its true, its a huge impact on my ego after what happened.
the reason i refuse to cut my hair short though so many ppl say it sux?
well u have it, i treat it like a mask of my feelings.
i will always have this long fringe without a valid reason,
if one day i still have this long fringe, but with a valid reason,
it means everything i have really forgotten everything that i wanted to.
Don't ask me to cut short hair cux i will not do it.
unless the hairstylist cut it by mistake -.-

my project is gonna be over soon
hopefully the computer's electricity doesn't turn off on sundays
cux if it did, im dead.
P1 will fail and i will cry sadly at home.

Your birthday is a few days ago,
at school i hestitated wether to wish you in facebook,
and so i did, but it was already after 12am.
well i guess to me its an undescibable feeling, a relucttant feeling,
but to you and everyone else, its jus another comment on the wall.

I tot why not just keep quiet and cut of all connections forever,
but thats a really bad idea,
if i did, then wad if i bumped onto you someday, it would be really awkard.
so why not just do it like everyone else, wish a happy birthday.
usually, i wish others for the sake of jus wishing it in facebook,
but this time is a real wish, like how i wished all my other close friends.

well and the only close frend i consider are like,
people who i dare talk to about my rants.
i treat my sec school clique as really close frens,
and a few poly frens i treat as close frens.

the poly frens who seem close to me aren't ppl who i treat as close frens
its those that share thier thought with me and i do the same as well.
its not the appearance, but the clicking of chemistry.

all these thoughts are real,
because its not known to the 'twitter facebook ppl'
but it would be so awkward as well if someone i knew,
read this blog of mine.

Tahts all for now.
I am so very tired from the project, i want to sleep now.
AND DON'T EVER INSULT MY FEELINGS BY SAYING I LIKE SOMEONE ELSE
JUST BECAUSE I DON'T SHOW DOEN'T MEAN I DON'T HAVE SOMEONE I ALREADY LIKE
its just that im a pathetic and hopeless guy.

PS: if someone who trips upon this blog,
check out the lyrics of the song on my blog
Namino Yukusaki by The Ricecookers.
it a japanese band, but an english song
that descibes how i really feel.

Yay i finally blogged!!

2 more weeks left till P1 ends,
so excited about going out with sec sch frens,
dam long nvr see them le. LOL

and in poly, life still sucks,
ppl who came into my course jus to dream of becoming an art teacher
WTF?!?! srsly, if u jus wanna be smth like that,
u dun have to come in and screw up the whole project.
with ur fucked-up attitude of nvr admiting ur wrong,
See some wrong area in animation, ask u change u oso reluctant _l_

If u jus wanna go into some sch or course with tat kinda dream,
why so suay come my course sia,
jus go into some random sch or smth,
anyway ur purpose is jus to 'find a boyfriend and marry him' dream
jus go back in ur kitchemn and fuck off,

U jus makes people's life difficult,
screwing up peoples project...
Nuff said, i will avoid u as much as how i will ever avoid going near the sun
less i heat and burn up myself.


RWARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok LOL,

first post of the year is wad i did when i went to 'baibai'
not sure if its the correct procedure but tats wad i did anyway,
so maybe i can go by myself nex year.

project 1 starts,
dead tired cux my ideas were not even considered,
even if i say the same thing as someone else,
my would get rejected while the other person's accepted.

Why? i oso duno. ppl wan guai lan me.
either jealous of me or jus bootlicking another guy.

I jus accept wadever idea they want to go with
therefore, i sure kena private university liao.
why? i jus dun like thier idea.
Maybe its jus me but i feel tat thier idea sucks,

Presentation time: thier idea tok tok tok,
Teacher: i dun think this would work, blah blah blah blah
i cut in: oh actually personally i feel blah blah blah
Teacher: ohohoh i see, that could actually work... u guys should reconsider.

this is wad happens, yet they are deaf on me.
zzz wadever, i dun give a dam anymore,
shall jus work wad they wan mi to.
ask mi model according to their drawings,
proportions or shape not wad they want?
standard sentence: u do lor, i duno wad u want.
then go get a drink =P

kthxbye,
time to continue my work.

So that i dont forget.

1)Buy the praying stuffs
2)unwrap stuffs on table and open 'crabstick' looking thing and black colour stuff
4)take the red piece of paper and stack on top in front of Tai Sui
5)at the same time slot in ang bao(amount according to lunar age)into the box nearby
6)at the unwrapped stuff on table take the candle and light it
7)take incense joss stick and light it using candle
8)go 1st to Thi Gong(thi as in sky)to pray, 3 incense joss stick
9) now go Tai Sui followed by many other various deities, amount of joss stick depend on amount of wine cup placed at the altar.
10)take the unwraped stuff(papers), leave the 2 packet of things there.
11)take the papers and go to the outside and burn, then done.
12) wash hands, drink orange juice, take a 'ping an'(safety) candy.

Is sick again...

I hate big groups of outing,
and the worst thing is i have to plan,

ok and luckily my new year shopping is done.
i jus ended a module
i am playing granado espada now.
and im chatting in msn now.

gimme a break,
unlike many ppl out there,
who always saying thier 'tired' which is emo-ing
i am the one who really tired like physically, no strength.

ok bb, back to playing granado espada!!

How i wish that feeling would come back to me again.
I feel so lost now,