random timing blog, and early in the morning.

School reopen, so much work,
but tats not all.

life doesn't seem that fun anymore,
i used to have more fun in my secondary school days.
feel so sad.
its so boring nowadays,
every outstanding things that happen in class is jus plain normal,
gotta give a fake excited exclamation to show to the baka-s...

Im looking to really do something that i can remember in my life,
something more interesting and meaningful to me,
not ur ordinary hang out, shopping, movie, k-session,
feels like youth is beaing wasted do much,
wanna do as many things i can when i still can play arnd,
after the NS, its all over.
as for dating wise, i duno y but i have this mindset,
to only find someone to date when ur out of NS,
cux after NS u get tied down to work,
getting tied down by one more person dont make a diff anymore.

for now freedom is all im looking forward to.
i got full freedom from parents.
but not full freedom from my mind-fucking mind
internal conflict of ideals in my mind, wad should i do.

Searching for the happy ben in the past...