That's why I don't wish to share anything with you.

I share because I want to share the joy and experience of finding out something nice,
You just totally shared whatever I shared with you to him,
that's gross.
why would you do that.
Oh right, because you are already considering getting him back,
all the more I can't seem to trust you.

Dishonest as you are getting,
it's grossing me out day by day.

So it turns out this way in the end

Yes we liked each other,
but she can't love me,
what else could I say.

It's not a complicated issue,
but she just couldn't love me,
it's so simple to the point that no one could understand,
we can never really understand each other.

Had quite a deep talk about who I am and who she is,
18 years old...?
She stopped the whole topic cause she didn't like talking about it,
I wonder why.
Does she not like to talk too much about herself to others?
I am also not trying to be spiteful when I re-used her whole description,
because the description that she gave me was how I am when I'm 18.
I couldn't lie about this, but it's hard to make people believe in it too.
We are definitely not the same, but those few sentences are what best described me.

Most of the time, its my lack of proper words and detailed description that causes a rift,
I always wanted to say "something" and when she gave me her opinion on the "something"
it usually turns out what she described is what I wanted to say,
just in a really proper and clear manner.

What do I look for in people,
Such a vague question,
So to tone it down I gave u in percentage,
30% Looks
20% Common interest
50% Mind
BULLSHIT! THESE ARE JUST DIGITS AND NUMBERS
What do I look for in someone?
I look for someone whom I can communicate with,
it's that simple, someone whom I can communicate and live with everyday,
Someone whom I have real feelings for,
Someone whom I am willing to sacrifice for,
Someone whom I am willing to show the disgusting side of me,
But all in all, it doesn't really matter anymore now.


It's over Haru.
Stop it.
Just Stop.

"As the last breathe of your mouth leaves me,
I cried deep inside my lungs,
Or was it something close,
That complicated pounding red object,
I held your lovely petite hands close to me as we walked,
Hugged,
I admired the one who made me felt something I have never felt before,
Your smile, your voice, the way you changed my mind,
That was the last thing that I remembered before I lost my sanity"

I'm in love with your mind, more so in you as a whole.