I'm One Step Behind Every Step You Take

2012-02-09T01:20:00.002+08:00

Im so stress i gotta just type it down,

P2 = stress
every group project.
theres a reason why acting for animation this module is here to teach us,
its for the animators and others,
to understand and interpret the feel of what the director wants.
i tried to compromise but there no way, unless in hell,
you could combine, candy/dream/toy land, foreign workers, superhero, comedy together.
unless you one day prove to me.

i not angry, im just stressed that i fail as a director and a leader.
it's not enough? or isit too much?

Naiteru ii desu ka..? ne..? ne...?

Random

2012-01-17T22:19:00.005+08:00

Been Blogging so much on the other blog,
it's a subject blog that has no meaning except for GPA.

My life is sad, I want to work fast, but im no good,
i cant spend time with my family and friends,
i don't even have time for myself,
why can people take life so easily and why cant i,
im a conflicting person who people will eventually get sick of,
all due to my lifestyle of working and working and working,

I'm sick of it, so tired, so so tired.
can i rest? no i can't, says me.
I don't even feel happy even when i act like i am,
i not even sure when was the last time im really happy.

Can someone distract me from my life, yet not take away my life,
it's so conflicting, im gonna stop talking.

2012-01-07T23:13:00.001+08:00

hihi test test picture~

2011-10-01T01:40:00.003+08:00

LOL, everytime i update is a very long time ago.

Now im having holiday, but it doesn't seem like holiday.
volunteeery project kills it all, i voluneteered,
but i didnt expect it to drain so much time...

now i cant even go out with frens, all day at sch
likeageekonly
sian max la.

ok la, at least it will be in testimonial.
hopefully it will be in. and also able to use for portfolio.

2011-07-12T22:00:00.002+08:00

im like suddenly so angry rite now.
now that theres another friend who feels the same way i do.
im not the only one feeling like this.
U MOTHER FUCKING KAMPONG VILLAGERS!!!
always treating my words as crap.
taking me as a joke.
u childish people with childish joke that contains no link nor pun!!!
ARGH!!! DAMN YOU!!

Always saying i like some retarded girl or even worse say i like another guy,
FUCK YOU!!
u've nvr been through wad i did in my secondary school life,
then dun fucking insult my feelings for another individual.

simmering down
i did not do so well for my interview today.
got ur everyday average students mark, slightly more abit.
i guess its peer presure,
that made me continue to group and hang out with u bunch of ****

i should really jus ignore peer presure,
i should really sitck with the ppl i am able to trust.
than 'charismatic' ppl that u cant really trust...

2011-06-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

Im told to blog, so i did.

Ok went out finally after 3 freaking weeks of 14hr in sch per day...
i keep pointing out 14 hrs as the main fact, cux i find it ARGHHHH.
i work more than the working class adults!!!!

so anyway i am sad.
i spent 20 freaking bucks on NOT getting a headphone i want.
gotta check out to see if its arcade limited or buy-able,
and the PRICE!!!

yay gonna sleep le. ZNORE ZNORE ZNORE.....

2011-05-15T03:39:00.002+08:00

random timing blog, and early in the morning.

School reopen, so much work,
but tats not all.

life doesn't seem that fun anymore,
i used to have more fun in my secondary school days.
feel so sad.
its so boring nowadays,
every outstanding things that happen in class is jus plain normal,
gotta give a fake excited exclamation to show to the baka-s...

Im looking to really do something that i can remember in my life,
something more interesting and meaningful to me,
not ur ordinary hang out, shopping, movie, k-session,
feels like youth is beaing wasted do much,
wanna do as many things i can when i still can play arnd,
after the NS, its all over.
as for dating wise, i duno y but i have this mindset,
to only find someone to date when ur out of NS,
cux after NS u get tied down to work,
getting tied down by one more person dont make a diff anymore.

for now freedom is all im looking forward to.
i got full freedom from parents.
but not full freedom from my mind-fucking mind
internal conflict of ideals in my mind, wad should i do.

Searching for the happy ben in the past...

2011-04-19T01:56:00.002+08:00

got back from taiwn le~~

Had a fun trip in taiwan,
Model kits are really cheap over there,
ironically cheaper than in japan, whereby its made in japan...
Got a SD 00 Qan[T], Omegamon(YES!!), Thousand Sunny(holy SHIT!)
Also got some other minor stuffs,
Many food souvenier stuff there is all old people eat de,
nth for myself, and only some 'pineapple tarts' for friends...

Last week of holidays le,
kinda busy with all the model kits, dragonica, and outings.
school reopens and i got no time for all of these anymore =(

And i don't know y but during the P1 period,
i've grown to like Nu metal and punk rock kinda songs ALOT.
it even got stuck to my head for weeks,
cure: listen to chinese song, cux its like totally different worlds apart.

i jus completed my Omegamon like now,
and i on9 now,
will on9 very little cux i have a thousand sunny.

And thanks my frens for the nerf gun, i will bring it out,
if we have a picnic fly kite, bicycle kinda outing.

bye bye, Happy!

2011-04-06T23:17:00.002+08:00

This shall be my last post before i go overseas.

Gonna go taiwan tmr noon,
aeroplane again, am not excited.
but the destination, Taiwain, is excited.

few days at home, pokemon and dragonica alot,
time flies too fast when im enjoying something...

gonna be back on the 12th april.

theres a poly chalet probly after i return,
but im a little relucntant,
cux they are no fun,
they like to joke like the caucasians,
says: 'we joke by insulting each other'
when u start insulting them.........
they so petty -.-
how to joke, ah dui~~~

ok no more post for today,
i will look for my omegamon in taiwan,
heard theres budget places.
will also look for other model kits,
look for limited edition exclusive stuff.
look for sourvenirs for friends as well.
as for poly dudes, ok...
they asked me to buy things like free one only,
too bad i not rich spoiled brat like them =(
no money...

Bye bye

2011-04-04T12:32:00.003+08:00

Woke up so early today for a holida, that is.

I set my alarm then go sleep,
wake up chiong bath and eat,
see the time was 12.10,
tot i late,
but no one called me to rush me,
rethinking,

HY said it was actually 1pm...
sits here doing nth but blog,
gonna go tamp, but i dun even noe wad to eat there,
and im pok gai,
saving money for taiwan...

2011-03-31T23:32:00.004+08:00

Lol, today was a fun day!!

My Birthday, so it was a random meet up,
so i meet YY and GK first to watchm Uchuu Senkan Yamato!!
It was an awesome movie!!!
then we went to meet the rest after that then go marina play pool.

Ok... and GK should have told us earlier that he wanted to go bugis to eat,
because none of us mind going there, the food there oso can,
so we ate le then travel to bugis -.-

oh well, thats the end of the day and im typing rite now. LOL

Kept asking me wad i wanted, lol
of course i wouldn't say la.
its like so imposing on ppl if i say it.
so actually wad i wanted is this,
i shall remind myself on blog and my phone:

Becux this is really my favourite digimon,
like really favourite favourite,
Hahaha, but i guess, even if HY who reads my blog saw this post,
its already over my birthday liao~~~
Its even on my wishlist~~

Im fine with or without a birthday present actually.
cux its like im just happy to go out and slack.
the best thing to do is after a tiring day,
i come home and sit infront of this computer and type and type,
then rest on my comfy bed playing games.

Thats it for today!!

And your birthday wish is just an obligatory one,
i dun really care ba, i guess...

2011-03-31T01:42:00.003+08:00

Yay, today is my Birthday.

Firstly.

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday Dear Benjamin,
Happy Birthday to me!!!!!

Woohoo,
but its so creepy tat im singing to myself,
its even creeping myself out.
as if i got split personality O.O
Oh well, wadever,
so my Ah Ma gave me an ang pao, i shall not open it yet~
will be kinda busy these few days and fying off to taiwan on the 7th april.
Trying to learn the guitar.

And thats it. Happy Birthday to me!!

2011-03-27T03:19:00.003+08:00

alright, so no one reads this blogs anymore.

and i would not go round talking about my blog.

IF SOMEONE EVER SAW THIS BLOG, YOU ARE BASICALLY READING A TYPED OUT FORMAT OF MY FEELINGS.

saw some zodiac facts about aries on twitter,
guess its true, its a huge impact on my ego after what happened.
the reason i refuse to cut my hair short though so many ppl say it sux?
well u have it, i treat it like a mask of my feelings.
i will always have this long fringe without a valid reason,
if one day i still have this long fringe, but with a valid reason,
it means everything i have really forgotten everything that i wanted to.
Don't ask me to cut short hair cux i will not do it.
unless the hairstylist cut it by mistake -.-

my project is gonna be over soon
hopefully the computer's electricity doesn't turn off on sundays
cux if it did, im dead.
P1 will fail and i will cry sadly at home.

Your birthday is a few days ago,
at school i hestitated wether to wish you in facebook,
and so i did, but it was already after 12am.
well i guess to me its an undescibable feeling, a relucttant feeling,
but to you and everyone else, its jus another comment on the wall.

I tot why not just keep quiet and cut of all connections forever,
but thats a really bad idea,
if i did, then wad if i bumped onto you someday, it would be really awkard.
so why not just do it like everyone else, wish a happy birthday.
usually, i wish others for the sake of jus wishing it in facebook,
but this time is a real wish, like how i wished all my other close friends.

well and the only close frend i consider are like,
people who i dare talk to about my rants.
i treat my sec school clique as really close frens,
and a few poly frens i treat as close frens.

the poly frens who seem close to me aren't ppl who i treat as close frens
its those that share thier thought with me and i do the same as well.
its not the appearance, but the clicking of chemistry.

all these thoughts are real,
because its not known to the 'twitter facebook ppl'
but it would be so awkward as well if someone i knew,
read this blog of mine.

Tahts all for now.
I am so very tired from the project, i want to sleep now.
AND DON'T EVER INSULT MY FEELINGS BY SAYING I LIKE SOMEONE ELSE
JUST BECAUSE I DON'T SHOW DOEN'T MEAN I DON'T HAVE SOMEONE I ALREADY LIKE
its just that im a pathetic and hopeless guy.

PS: if someone who trips upon this blog,
check out the lyrics of the song on my blog
Namino Yukusaki by The Ricecookers.
it a japanese band, but an english song
that descibes how i really feel.

2011-03-12T02:30:00.002+08:00

Yay i finally blogged!!

2 more weeks left till P1 ends,
so excited about going out with sec sch frens,
dam long nvr see them le. LOL

and in poly, life still sucks,
ppl who came into my course jus to dream of becoming an art teacher
WTF?!?! srsly, if u jus wanna be smth like that,
u dun have to come in and screw up the whole project.
with ur fucked-up attitude of nvr admiting ur wrong,
See some wrong area in animation, ask u change u oso reluctant _l_

If u jus wanna go into some sch or course with tat kinda dream,
why so suay come my course sia,
jus go into some random sch or smth,
anyway ur purpose is jus to 'find a boyfriend and marry him' dream
jus go back in ur kitchemn and fuck off,

U jus makes people's life difficult,
screwing up peoples project...
Nuff said, i will avoid u as much as how i will ever avoid going near the sun
less i heat and burn up myself.

RWARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-02-13T17:03:00.002+08:00

Ok LOL,

first post of the year is wad i did when i went to 'baibai'
not sure if its the correct procedure but tats wad i did anyway,
so maybe i can go by myself nex year.

project 1 starts,
dead tired cux my ideas were not even considered,
even if i say the same thing as someone else,
my would get rejected while the other person's accepted.

Why? i oso duno. ppl wan guai lan me.
either jealous of me or jus bootlicking another guy.

I jus accept wadever idea they want to go with
therefore, i sure kena private university liao.
why? i jus dun like thier idea.
Maybe its jus me but i feel tat thier idea sucks,

Presentation time: thier idea tok tok tok,
Teacher: i dun think this would work, blah blah blah blah
i cut in: oh actually personally i feel blah blah blah
Teacher: ohohoh i see, that could actually work... u guys should reconsider.

this is wad happens, yet they are deaf on me.
zzz wadever, i dun give a dam anymore,
shall jus work wad they wan mi to.
ask mi model according to their drawings,
proportions or shape not wad they want?
standard sentence: u do lor, i duno wad u want.
then go get a drink =P

kthxbye,
time to continue my work.

2011-02-13T16:53:00.002+08:00

So that i dont forget.

1)Buy the praying stuffs
2)unwrap stuffs on table and open 'crabstick' looking thing and black colour stuff
4)take the red piece of paper and stack on top in front of Tai Sui
5)at the same time slot in ang bao(amount according to lunar age)into the box nearby
6)at the unwrapped stuff on table take the candle and light it
7)take incense joss stick and light it using candle
8)go 1st to Thi Gong(thi as in sky)to pray, 3 incense joss stick
9) now go Tai Sui followed by many other various deities, amount of joss stick depend on amount of wine cup placed at the altar.
10)take the unwraped stuff(papers), leave the 2 packet of things there.
11)take the papers and go to the outside and burn, then done.
12) wash hands, drink orange juice, take a 'ping an'(safety) candy.

2011-01-28T00:11:00.002+08:00

Is sick again...

I hate big groups of outing,
and the worst thing is i have to plan,

ok and luckily my new year shopping is done.
i jus ended a module
i am playing granado espada now.
and im chatting in msn now.

gimme a break,
unlike many ppl out there,
who always saying thier 'tired' which is emo-ing
i am the one who really tired like physically, no strength.

ok bb, back to playing granado espada!!

2011-01-21T02:07:00.002+08:00

How i wish that feeling would come back to me again.
I feel so lost now,

2010-12-11T01:28:00.002+08:00

Long time now,
and i decided to bitch it in my online dairy...
no one reads it anyway, except for my sec sch frens^^ YAY

So im going to sch like a regular student,
i listen in class becux there a reason why a sch/class/lesson existed in the world,
it is for us to learn and it stays like tat for ages,
becux teaching in a class proved to be effective.

So i learned in class while people who dun want to,
tend to do stupid things in class,
and then things goes like yada yada yada yada.

Im pissed off but theres nth i can do,
1st, im outnumbered
2nd, theres no end to the number of 'bad points' i can list out.
3rd, if i list them all out, they would cry abt being so worthless.

That sums up what my thoughts are.
if theres any credibility, its up to my mind to decide.

2010-10-25T23:43:00.003+08:00

So long nvr post liao,

wa sian, freaking sick,
scared to eat outside, may vomit.
>.<

hehe, today went to sch but no lesson, NANI!!!
reached sch when yanting called me to tell me no lesson
-.- go out for nth.

went to library to slack afterwards.
cant live without gadgets,
everyone in the library project room ain't studying,
we're all playing out games!!

After that we split up, brought jie to his classroom,
since he is blur...

AND U and ur noisy hell pet!!!
one needs help and so goes the guy to help,
and the guy helping the pet needs help himself
FAIL
Knew it, get help from friends, family, and even ME
YETYOUSTILLCANTBEATME
FAIL again

hahaha, dun underestimate the great me.
The great ME who studied for olvl for only 3hr per day, scored the same result as u
(ok, didnt study cux of some crap in my head going on...)
and the great ME who dun need any help in poly
yet still helping ppl

again
UCANTBEATME
I am getting far to ego-istic.
but who cares, its my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-10-16T13:21:00.002+08:00

WAS FUCKING AWESTRUCK

ytd nite, i was on facebook and then tired le,
i X internet and off my comp,
this morning i wake up, i opened my email,

theres this email from facebook saying
'qiao yu has accepted your friend request'
WTF!! i nvr even touch my fb acc, i was sleeping la!

and then i log into facebook, '1 notifications'
'qiao yu has accepted your freind request'

WTF? i nvr even add anyone.
maybe is the FB link with Hotmail,
then auto add de ba,
anyone in my hotmail will be added automatically?

Oh fuck it, wth.
First tiem i blog so early when i jus woke up. LOL

And who is mike?
some ADV or Virus.
If its Virus, i gg le, i clicked the link...

2010-10-14T00:19:00.002+08:00

Test...

Finally done, my new background...
and changing of font colours,
let me noe if its diff to see the words...
but is anyone gonna visit this blog???!?!?!?!?!

2010-10-07T00:30:00.002+08:00

Crap, so busy busy busy.

I've been Darn busy for 1 week+ now.
reaching 2 weeks of going out EVERYDAY.
Theres sure smth on.
Family, sec sch frens, poly frens, school.

And now theres already a plan for the 3rd week,
guess i wont be completing my games,
the abundent amount of games prepared for holidays...

Wake up > outing > Computer awhile> Sleep

Be wary, for I am a heartless person.
Muahahahaha!!!!!

2010-10-06T00:00:00.002+08:00

Woohoo, sec sch chalet.

damn fun la,
laugh and laugh non stop,
like srsly NON-stop.

Monopoly deal, poker, cheat.
Breezer, nuggets, hotdogs, sandwhich,

Was really fun,
some kinda htht became some slapping thighs game.
Never play it though, got to go home T.T
got some stupid sch tmr.

If my volunteery work in sch tmr doesn't give mi SEAL points,
hohoho, i'll be like dam pissed of for wasting my time and effort.
And i will surely bug the lecturere the nect time this kinda things happen,
bug abt wether there are SEAL points or not.

Next Time, on channel BenHo

2010-09-29T02:29:00.002+08:00

Last day of chalet ends.
Walking alone in the midnight still feels great.

Wonder if i'll ever have outing with video people,
this is saddening, majority are video.

And i finally limped home,
after bering it for a whole day,
so that ppl wont see the pain.
and thats why i kept walking away from the chalet for awhile,
to be alone and rest my leg.

2010-09-28T02:02:00.002+08:00

Walking home alone midnight is good
i feel at peace
if only there wasnt rain.

Sleeping so late everyday,
should drink some milk to cure 'gaming insomnia'
drink milk = sleep

today 1st day of chalet,
Was fun but leg injury sux,
all thanks to design school's lousy design, ironic eh?
I didnt expect myself to be the one washing the foods, like OMG
im usually the slacker la. oh well it was fun.
Costa sands pasir ris is like so old...
i tot its like some kinda new new resort kind.

Tmr 2nd day of chalet, gonna go in the noon.
oh nosss, gonna spend more money.
gotta save a bit of money for AFA2010,
its gonna be a hectic paradise, ironic eh eh?

Hope i dun forgot about my blog like my twitter.
Thats for today!
Does anyone even reads it?
Myabe i do, its like an electronic journal.

2010-09-27T02:38:00.002+08:00

Im a midnight blogger.

I like shabu shabu
I like my new china mock ps2 gampad
I like my computer which is enough to satify my gameing needs

1 month holiday
class chalet
split class...sian
hope when its common module, all of us can stay same class.

This is ridiculous,
Im broke and holiday started,
no money, no talk, sian...

Im going crazy,
whenever i watch anime or kamen rider,
it felt like i was watching some kinda adobe video,
my brain automatically identifies the layer and what not,
this makes anime seems so stupid and easy, though it wasn't
Am i gonna do that kind of stuff in years later??
LOL, if i did, i would go even crazier.

2010-09-24T01:01:00.003+08:00

Yet again, I had helped others,
Just like o lvls,
I myself have not enough time while others are already finishing their work,
Fuck it, i have to be more of a bastard and hard hearted,
being soft only gets mi being pushed around.

I only announce myself as a pro when i am one,
i not boasting, unlike some...

YOUAREJUSTANOTHEREGOISTICWEAKLINGWHOCANTBEATME,
GETSOMEBACKBONEPLEASEANDSTOPRELYINGONOTHERS.

Jus try not to read or understand the above,
Im just venting my anger.

2010-09-17T23:39:00.001+08:00

Dilemna...
Who...?

2010-07-30T00:21:00.002+08:00

Long time now.

I finally remembered to change some outdated stuff on this blog
New song for mi, so freaking addicted to this song man,
I noe gal song, this blog kena classified as gal blog le? LOL
but freaking nice la this song.

And im back to loving to watch anime,
gundam interest back,
kamen rider ftw,
digimon crapping agn,
playing ds and psp all day long
Suddenly all my old interest was back,
maybe cux i joked about my past,
joke till i dun give a shit anymore,
I wanna be Who I am.

its MY interest afterall,
its not like im dragging people to follow mi,
like follow as in toking about all that crap no one noes.

Okay, I continue to check wads old in this blog~~
Xeeeee YA

2010-07-20T00:46:00.003+08:00

Its been a long time

I didnt blog for like how long sia,
aiya lazy check.
so today went out to discuss about bt's Bday

On my way to there, i took escalator up to mrt
suddenly 1 china old lady lose her step
then fall down till like left 20 degree sia,
lucky i behind her, my hand holding the handrail
then she zhun zhun fall on my arm
arbo she reverse somersault down like 6m
also heng got 1 uncle chiong up from downstair to help mi push her balance
Guess i saved a life, although my whole arm red.
LOL, crazy uncle ask mi go ask her for 4d number, siao.

the reached 18 chef, ate some garlic flavour,
whole mouth smelly whole day.
Talked alot crap!!!

Home...
holiday for 6 weeks, can spread out outings peacefully
no rushing.

OK, no more, bye bye.

2010-06-21T21:39:00.002+08:00

Puzzled,

Did u take it seriously?
I dun noe either.
But im still going on with life though...

Today went to watch Toy Story 3,
totally no energy at all,
dam cui sia, phlegm overload...

Short one.
ByeBye.

2010-06-16T01:43:00.003+08:00

Rarely update le,

Having fever pwns ur holiday away.
Oni can stay at home to play PSP.
This blog is so dead,
Feel like delete blog, but i delete oso lazy.
So i'll jus update once in a Blue
Moon
Light
Shines
Upon
The
Guilty.

Bye
Bye,
I am typing
very
weirdly, very weirdly.

2010-06-06T01:18:00.002+08:00

Nvr update for so long,
today went out to film our CommDI project,
from easy concept to complicated one.

And for HY:

2010-05-27T01:08:00.003+08:00

Siannnn

Long time no update le man,
everyday after school will either go blic,
or busily just roam around and tok kok.
Reach home at LEAST 10 pm everyday sia...
tried to stay as late with frens tok kok,
but nid do assignments, so no choice,
rushed home then chiong assignments,
Just finished the bloody CommDI expository,
I hate Felix the Cat. less time, lots of work.
Everyday bloody hell bring one teh ping with plastic carrying,
then ppl presentation, he drinking with the GLHF face _l_

Tmr gonna be agood nite, wahahahaha, vesak day on friday,
can like slack till 12am oso nvm one lor.
Vesak day or sat maybe going with YY to License2play,
DAM BLOODY HELL long nvr touch on9 games le,
except DotA...

Like SOOOO early now, gng sleep soon,
Hates CommDI, but trying to love it.

2010-05-20T00:41:00.002+08:00

Sore Throat + Dulan = Angry

Having sore throat sucks,
cant eat anything fried,
though i just ate KFC...

2 new subjects now,
drawing essentials and communicating design ideas,
both suck BIG time.
naggy teacher for drawing makes mi wan to sleep,
CommDI is jus madness, doing a whole grp project in less then 24 hr grace time, WTF

Dam Dulan oso,
Sometimes when someone tells u something or a secret,
u do noe u shld not have said it out to anyone ecspecially the one in the topic,
but u did, and now im pissed off.

Dam fired now la, gng sleep le.

2010-05-17T23:55:00.002+08:00

Went to get some life

Go out to slcak with dan and yy today,
meeted at eunos then go city hall there,
went to pennisular to look for the davis guitar shop,
browse to check out the pricing,
i luv the blue guitar man.
and the doraemon one XD

then go to tamp to hunt down yy's gta4
dan, i knew u could make it, M18!!
and somemroe is ah beng shop category,
sure dam easy one la.

So i went to TP for JCG drawing session...
slacked and drew some anime stuff,
I wasn't that pro, but not noob oso ok,
I seem to gain back my drawing skills I used to have...
then went to tamp to eat KFC with bt and hy.
Freaking (trying my best to avoid vulgar) full now.

What a day, tmr is gonna be first class of new block.

Dear XXX
Im trying to forget u
pls try to change ur msn pm
its very striking to me personally
and its very striking, like a thunder so loud
i wanna cry, u noe...?

2010-05-12T02:07:00.002+08:00

haix, i phail like...

So fraking early now,
time is 2.07am.
Dam sad la, photography module pwns mi ass,

Mathis ask hu wans to have thier results read out,
as usaul like in sec sch,
I requested to jus shout out my results,
to save some asses troublesome matter.
Im jus actually lazy to have consultation,
tats hu i am.

Got a C for tat, im so screwed.
C for China, get it bitch!!(randomness k?)
Well, im like not cut out for video,
maybe i shld like try not to do something im not talented in?
Probly will be one of those kena force pushed to animation elective,
Director's list waves farewell to mi.
University is jus another unattainable dream.
I guess after getting diploma, work as some shit ass idiot,
work in like some place tat dun even nid diploma those kind,

Duno why i feel so worthless,
wathcing my parents like wad, pay $2150,
to see mi work as some shit ass idiot.

Been leaving house at 8am, reaching home at 9+pm everyday.
super chiong man, eat talk walk photo talk walk.
Trying to get used to the SUPER high-ness.
Sec sch was oni like high-ness compared to now.

Theres like nth wrong being single,
but it hurts whenever im online msn.
I saw all emo PMs except 1 happy PM,
but the happy PM jus makes mi sad like i cant explain it.

CANT STAND IT ANYMORE
CANT TRUST IT ANYMORE

2010-05-10T00:03:00.002+08:00

Tired...of assignments

How i wished theres jamnhop everyday
firday jamnhop was epic,
walking arnd ccn without ur best/high frens sucks
and i really wanted to open a booth so badly,
LAZY CP's fault...

Yt and today went out...
dun wanna go into details.
lets jus say, i went vivo for both days,
cant sem to get enough photos for final assignments,
even went ehub on my own to get some photos,
which are too crappy.

Sadden by a sad truth,
A secondary school friend is attached,
well im shocked, but im happy,
cux when i noe i dun stand a chance,
Im freed, seriously freed now.

OK, so fired now,
for thoe hu dun noe, i jus cr8ted it,
fired = fucking tired.
Bye Bye Bye

2010-05-06T23:15:00.002+08:00

I knew it,

tonite's really a good good nite.
Had a fun time with changkat ppl.
stupid ppl all cock up the food order stuff.
but its still fun, photos too much,
shout too much...maybe kena stomp?
after most of the gals went home, we went to a park near Tanah,
tok cok abit, then when home,

Tmr is CCN day, I wanna explore the sch so much,
I EVEN wanted to open a booth, but my class CP so lazy,
nvr organise give my class T.T

Gonna like sleep soonzz,
if u see mi keep on stalk u,
i am not, cux my blog easiest type,
so all my frens use my link to blog hop,
how easy? ben ho blogging at (dot) blogspot (dot) com
as easy as dat.
and how do u even check how pl stalk u,
otehr than nuffnang, zzz
nth else for the day, kthxbai

2010-05-04T08:54:00.002+08:00

Assignments,

Doing assignments everyday,
but not receiving it everyday,
this explains how hard my assignments are.

I shld be happy for other ppl's happiness
I'm a jester, yes i am.

2010-05-02T02:26:00.002+08:00

Very less blog now le,

Im so tired, almost everyday is adventure,
everyday sure got outing,
which is good,
im not a fucking keyboard warrior,
nor am i a internet abbrivetions( i duno how spell)idiot,
i noe more of the world outside then wad those...
FUCKTARDS noe, they noe the net very well,
but tats all there is to their life,

Stop acting like ur a hypocrite in the net,
jus cux u dunid show ur face,
doesn't mean u can change ur personality,
This is not FML, but FYIL,
FUCK YOUR INTENET LIFE.

2010-04-28T00:01:00.002+08:00

Gng sleep soon,

Design sch is so homework-ful,
given assignmetn haven end, give another one continuosly,
Fucking tired now,
or even everyday,

tok abt songs, i used to love random meaningless song,
but now it seems like NOISE to mi,
slow meaningful songs seems much more pleasing,

Alrite and poly's kinda boring as its chiong-ing hw session,
gona find somethings to not feel bored,
maybe bring-ing ym lappy or psp or ds? Pokemon FTW!!

My Kube mp3 going haywire liao,
batt sot liao, somemore dam lag now.
wad to say?
blog agn another time.
kthxbbai

2010-04-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

I said i was gonna blog,
so i did.
I'd seen this somewhere,
how long u love someone before,
it will take the same amount of time to forget the person,
but i just tried to stay as if nth ever happens,
I've given up, but i nvr forget wad has happened.

We wun want to forget smth, but rather,
We shloudn't bother ourself with it,
its just such a waste of time and sanity.

Use the time on others who would give u a chance,
but oso dun forget the times u had with the person initially.

2010-04-23T08:56:00.002+08:00

Posting from sch comp man...

its like some photography lesson,
take pictures all day,
soon I'll turn into a freelance photographer liao lor,

its like nth has happened since then,
alrite? so im fine with anything now,
I wun give a dam anymore,
I noe how i feel, i admit it, but i noe its impossible.
So i dun care anymore la.

2010-04-19T16:21:00.002+08:00

HiHi!! Today dam high!!

Ytd nite cant sleep due to the fucking TV noise,
today woke up, dam tired, eyes dry and pain!!

When i reached pasirris inter,zzz, bus 15 queue till god knows where,
1st bus came...*walks* almost my turn le, the bus full, then drove off,
in the end waited for the second bus. REACH SCHOOL LATE!!
Then listen to TDS Director mono toking...
sianded, reach late no place sit, mus sit on stair,
pi gu pain liao la!!

After the talk, i tot got lesson, btu still got few hrs time,
so met hy, bt, rj go tamp eat lunch,
the lecturer whom i called earlier called mi bak,
told mi theres no lesson, INSTANT REACTION!!
Hyped up man, go arcade slack awhile then go home,

Stupid EZ Link, top up $10
Poly card, pay $8
pok gai le, nid claim from parents.

and so i guess i dunid to bring my big bag to sch everyday,
seems like theres no notess needed, i GUESS
maybe a hard COMMON plastic file will do ^^
Today met lots of ppl man,
Dillon - duno wads he up to @.@??
Jia Hao - zzz wave so many time nvr see mi T.T
Cynthia - duno is waving to mi or hy, but i jus waved bak -.-
Joshua - wan meet us for lunch, i sui bian, but rushing, so nvr meet.

Nth much happen today, its jus like a few hours and such a long post,
I bo blogging skills, sry for all reader's eyes...

2010-04-17T01:13:00.002+08:00

Short post, update nia.

OK, tuesday orien camp was boring,
shout and shout,
then theres this girl, who is sadly not in my course T.T
sianded and now, nth much to say,
probly going out tmr,
this blog will try not to be boring, but will still be,
I not a camwhore so i dun like pictures many many,
tats it, kthxbai

2010-04-08T00:25:00.002+08:00

Haven been updating quite some time.

I ownself oso forgot the events these few days le.
well, i know i bought new laptop,
played bball few days ago.
and WILL be collecting the grad stuff on fri,
but cant stay long for fri, gotta meet parents go out,

Playing too much games le, whole day dun eat oso wun hungry de,
but its bad, not eating regularly causes mi to grow fat.
so, hungry = drink milk
ph14 + ph1 = ph7 = GOOD

Been enjoying this new laptop alot,
all the games i wan to play but cant play for the past few years,
finally, all can play le. Happy ^_^

And oso probly going for design sch camp,
Be a good boy and follow normal student procedure ba.
Make more frens is good, so says, the more the merrier.
Who cares if my whole class,
is a bunch of (insert things of interest) Obsessed freako,
As long as im not some obsessed freak can le^^
Nth much, boring as hell, kthxbai

2010-04-01T01:25:00.002+08:00

Pics today

Went to snow city,
then dinner at marina,
after that follow hy go buy his headset,
i saw le addicted oso, so i buy,
daniel saw my that design oso addicted,
so he oso buy, then after tat went home,
short paragraph, long story.
YY, bring $$ for the addictive headset!!
blog agn soon.

2010-03-31T00:05:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday myself,

Thanks for the wishes,
Thanks to frens,
Tanks to tower.

The end

2010-03-30T01:58:00.003+08:00

Dota Dota and more Dota

Been Dotaing too much,
and oso pokemoning too much,
ytd nite sleep till midnight suddenly...
Suddenly got nightmare!!
Dreamt that there were 9 moons,
suddenly arnd 5 moons shoot down on mi,
then i woke up suddenly, 3am...tick tock tick tock
wad was tat? Luna's Ulti? zzz
U mus be thinking am i writing a storybook or lost my mind,
lol, ok tat was it. Random alrite?
Jus updating...

2010-03-25T00:07:00.004+08:00

Blogging after a daze,

Ok, Jus woke up after some 2hr sleep?
so ytd was Pat's bday,
went out to celebrate tgt with 9ppl!
first went to buy presents,
then went to meet at ehub le.
so after tat, eat at pastamania, was a LOL time.
then it was k-box, second time le.
blah blah and blah blah,

I've got no pics.

after tat, went to bowling,
that place was like cold...
and it was like blah blah blah.
after its over, the gals went home le.
so we 'fighting' over to eat or icecream first.
so they said to eat and dun wan icecream.
got 2 fats is kae siao de lor,
last time say is really wan eat icecream,
now is wan see mi go in gelare nia lor,

ok so now go BK to eat, cheapcheap burger,
~eat the cheapcheap seafood at hawker ar!!~
~eat aledi, now wan lao sai ahh!~
~ppl lao sai oso wan take photo!~

zzz, so we took hy ipod and started rolling tissue.
~You're my record record record record brekaer~
4.XX secs. lol, very fun game
then went home le.

Happy Birthday Qiao Yu!

Today was just some bowling and pool.
nothing much but exhaustion,
dotaing too much this few days.
Gonna play pokemon now,
else i cant get tired so that i can go back sleep.

2010-03-18T23:52:00.002+08:00

No pics for today.

Went out with frens to ehub,
plan to go movie, but dun wan,
plan to go bowl, but dun wan,
plan to go pool, but dun wan,
so go Kbox!
The box is updated with new songs as i expected.
i knew this long ago, but i was to 'unlame',
so it came as a surprise to everyone except for myself.
then after tat went to the hk food restaurant,
ate some cheapest stuff in the menu,
then went to gelare to ice cream.

Gelare's staff misunderstood the situation,
and u all oso.
I plan to go there regardles the situation,
ask mi next time if u all wan noe.
Hoho! Daniel phone is crazy?
Dan's fav msg 'how come got 1 gay ans ur phone de! LOL'
MADNESS, and dan and hy doing duno wad on the seat,
attracted lots of attention, OMG!
tats all, bye for now. Stay Tuned!

2010-03-16T01:08:00.005+08:00

Epic Randomness

Previously went out to IT Show with frens,
its always the same few people,yea.
So freaking cramped, dun have the mood to look at stuffs,
the truth is, I dun really wan to buy anything.
after that went to pool at marina []
I think I've got the Pool Addiction.
Is there any Pool Rehabilation Centre in sg? lol
after all that went to big balls or wadver tat restaurant is.
Wth, my order nvr got ordered,
by the time Da Ji's Chicken Sugery was over,
my fish and fries then came -.-
after that then went home le, sianzzz.

Nth particular happen,
Just epic Randomness,
What i've been watching and playing. ROFL!

And another randomness,
If u watch Zatch Bell/Konjiki no Gash Bell, you'll noe
MY VULCAN 300!!!

It can move its limbs.
Wanna noe how to make? contact Channel BenHo!

Tats abt enough randomness, EPIC!

2010-03-12T22:22:00.003+08:00

This is the Title!

Ytd went out with frens go ECP to cycle,
Oh Shit! walked through the creepy tunnel yet agn,
like the time when i had 4E3 class BBQ,
Those memories are ironic,
i'm not sure if rmbing it or forgetting it is better,
Tats the 2nd time i walked through that tunnel,
its still noon, so its not so crrepy,

Cycle cycle, then eat at lagoon,
Daniel's CoCo was born then,
After eating went to the beach to take some photos

Theres a failed jumpshot, so look like the legendary Horse Stance,
Theres Yoona CoCo Chia oso!
Ok tats abt it,
so walked back the same path,
this time the tunnal sure is creepy...
cux its dark le,
but not as creepy as my class BBQ tat time,

Ok tats it, duno wan post daniel EPIC Pic anot
ByeBye, see u next time, rmb to tune in to ChannelBenHo!

2010-03-10T13:53:00.002+08:00

Testing Pictures posting

Blah Blah, my computer wallpaper.
Nice rite? hehe

2010-03-08T01:20:00.002+08:00

Pain!

Whole body aching from ice skating,
okok, at least got outing.
friday went to cut hair.
become very short now, and cooling.
watched music bank at BT house.
lol, only waited for snsd part.haha

Then on saturday, which is ytd,
went out with frens go kallang leisure park,
walked around everywhere,
first ice skating looked like 'disney on ice'
freaking flooded,
then went to bowling, oso full,
so we went to eat...
Wait, did i get the eat and bowling part in order...?
I forgot le,lol
then in the end went back to ice skating,
its so not fun in there.
the place is too small and noisy,
not my type of place.
Imagine circling around a hockey court for 2hrs...
Wasted my $20 if ur asking wad i really feel abt it.

Today went out with parents.
Its boring. nth to tok abt.
I'm just trying to be a good boy.
Whom i used to be in pri sch.haha

Looking forward to tmr,
Wonder if snowcity is fun...
at least if it is a slacking place, I'm alrite with it.
Sleeping soon.
Thank you for wasting ur time. kthxbye

2010-03-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

Wad should i start with?
i'm lazing around agn.
just did finish all enrollment stuff.
very boring, and i dun even noe y im bloggin.

Maybe cux when i blog about smth,
i forgot wad i blog abt.
Quite good to escape things i hate.
Yeah! I'm runig, I jus dun feel like facing it now.
When i feel like facing it, i will.
Shld i delete all my past post?
'Its time to move on' is wad my heart is telling me.
Eh, shld i erase all evidence of the one i'm runnig away from?
Including msgs and phone num, email and whatnot.
Some suggestions? I'm exhausted of thinking already.

Also duno wan cut my hair anot.
Fringe reached nose level, if i pull it vertically.
Side burns reached chin level.
Ear is covered.
Back reached shoulder around level.
Suggest some things?

"REN JIAN YOU QI JI!"
MAGIC GO LIVE!
WTF!!!!!!
Yea rite...if got miracle,
if theres really miracle,
it probly did not happen on when I wan it to.Zzz

Ans its march already, my month and her month too.
Also, if theres anything up,
msg me, MUS MSG MI!!!!
minor things oso mus call mi!
Shop for grocery oso can, jus anynthing!
ARGHHHHHH!!!!
Booooorrrriiiing until Godlike liao.

2010-02-26T14:52:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 1.30 this afternoon,
slept like pig from ytd 3am.
was making choc cornflakes till midnight,
hoho, this time i succeeded.
so i did not waste my time shopping for choc ytd,

tok about ytd...
woke up freaking early to go for checkup,
go till there, the clinic say nid med form,
so i rush home to enroll to get the med form,
then rush bak, by the time, theres like effing lots ppl.
checkup > x-ray at tamp > Da-bao food > home.
after awhile, went to meet my mum at EP for the Giro stuffs,
then went to buy choc.hehe
Ep NTUC is HEAVY DUTY,
saw D_sir__, whom i only noe its my schoolmate,
and Gui Fei of the Si Mei Ren, working as cashier.
HOHOHOHOHO, WTF!!!!!!

Took passport photo,
but it looks bad.
Maybe retake agn soon.

Is there any place in SG which is quiet?
like some kinda big field or beach,
where u can jus sit down there and sleep?
Would wanna cycle to that place and relax for awhile,
Too many things are happening too fast,
If only i am able to sleep whenever i want.

2010-02-24T00:59:00.002+08:00

Wad should i post?

Today was just another ordinary day.
Woohoo, theres a new anime, Gundam Unicorn.
Quite nice to watch,
Feel like buying the model too,
but save money for laptop better.

Oso dled new DS game,
Yu-Gi-Oh! 5D's world championship 2010,
ok, i noe i play all weird games,
Digimon V-pet oso la.
Anyway its boring........
Waiting for next week when everyones free,
Mus go out liao ar!! rotting at home.

Feel like changing to contacts,
My bro use for awhile nia then use to it le,
I oso feel like try try,
cux my specs is clashing with my fringe.
very irritating, keep on kena stuck.

Oso oso!!
Finally received poly enrollment package,
now 1am+ too early le,
later after sleeping then open.
Heard theres lots of shit to do.

2010-02-23T03:13:00.002+08:00

Today is not a sunny day

Went out in afternoon to play bball,
got 6 ppl, but oni 3 played,
this time i got play,hahaha.

Then after tat, walked to wx house,
had some kinda conference on misunderstanding,
everything settle and talk properly liao,
2 simple yet time consuming things done,
its 6.30 and then walked to mrt station.
Then went home.

Now im in some shit situation,
like the lyrics in 2pm - Heartbeat

And then hor,
You all wan joke joke can,
but dun joke until so guo fen can?
Nvr see me angry b4 dun mean i nvr angry b4.

Okay bye bye,
very early le.

2010-02-18T01:26:00.003+08:00

Hi, BenHo is here today,

Today was sianz day,
go out with parents to eat,
my crazy mum want to make choc cornflakes,
reminds me of 'someone'
so i ask the 'someone' on tips to make it,
I asked wad baking chocs to use,
but i got a late reply,
so its kinda useless, bought vanhouten brand,
reach home then delay this and that in the end,
my mum did not make the choc cornflakes,

to day oso went kallang airport hawker,
go 2nd floor look for old sch shops,
WAKAO! i found digimon!~~,
but so ex, CB~~AR~~
so i nvr buy, then oso went kallang leisure park,
Latendo got so many candy toys and gashapon,
HY! u can try go, maybe have 'Sunny Go!'
came home after that.

I JUST open all ang bao,
this year was WOOTS!
got money buy laptop in poly le ^_^
(long time nvr use dat emoticon) ^
Becux i am sad, but now i am happy.
so dun remind me of the sad things.
But i still can blanja ice cream,
Becux i dun really care anymore. L:<

Is blogging the same as twitter?
if it is ar, maybe i change better,
Dunid edit html, so mafan.
Sleeping soon. Bye Bye.
Have a nice day and night.

Check out my new profile, wishlist and links,
PRO RITE! HAHAHAHAHA

2010-02-15T00:57:00.003+08:00

Blogging, this time I admit its emo post

Ytd night was crucifying,
cant sleep at all throughout,
Its known as happy CNY and Bloody Valentine
why isit bloody? my heart bled.
Breathing was difficult,
Physically, it was like taking a roller coster.
my heart was sinking to my stomach,
there was rain coming from my room,
but it rained onli arnd my eyes.

I just found out that,
I wasn't supposed to doubt myself.
How many times i said 'I give up le-.-'
I ownself oso duno,
But from just now onwards,
I truly FINAL GAVE UP le.
It's real this time.

It's a damn 'good' year man,
Black Jack lose money,
Shitty things happen,
Mi, hu u all noe, dun booze,
took down a can today.
Duno why I dun felt the bitterness.

Now I am asking myself,
'why did we met in sec3?'
'why I reject meeting u on sportsday on sec3'
'why did we did our ss project tgt on sec3?'
'why did we took the same subjects?'
'why did i help u in dnt even when Im in deep shit myself?'
'why did i lose myself during O level and nvr concentrate?'
I am just another pathetic random student,
who lost track of wads ahead of me,
and bothered by trivial stuffs tat hurt myself so much.

I noe u all saw this post,
but dun tok abt this things anymore EVER AGAIN.
I mean SERIOUS de.
Blog again another time.

2010-02-10T15:12:00.002+08:00

BLOG...Blog...blog...*melts*

Wads wrong with the weather!
So hot, HOT! Not warm!
So my hair colour change,
For those hu wan see, dun ask mi take pic agn,
my phone lousy so no use,
if wan, the next meeting,
with the LEGENDARY ORGANIZER,
But i haven get my pay sia,
ntuc says 'ppl hu resign will receive their pay later'

When wan to go out?
I oso duno leh,
Nth do at home, only sweating
Weather so hot, CNY GG le la.
Its a funny sunny day.
Have a nice day -.-

2010-02-07T01:36:00.002+08:00

Alright, here i am posting

Damn sian these few days,
Audi and drama nia,
Just now went tamp 201,
Bought new shoes,
Black with yellow lining,
quite nice, suka suka buy lor.

Oso bought hair dye...die? i dunno
Bought Gatsyby Honey Orange,
buy light light colour first,
arbo wun have effect on my super black hair,
with extra Bee Hoon.
Tmr then dye...die? wadever

Stupid audi, cant uninstall de,
not even listed in the add or remove programs there,
duno wan to risk deleting the whole folder anot.
Help Me! AHHHHH!!!

2010-02-02T13:20:00.002+08:00

Been a long time since i last blog.

Was working the past 1 week.
Already resigned.
The job sucks, all auntie,
no teenagers, no make new frens,
Even my parents oso discourage me working there.
rested for 2 days at home le.
damn it! first toe damn pain,
maybe cux of over standing and shopping.

Not sure wan to work other place anot,
now the timing a little 'bu san bu si' le,
CNY coming, school orinetation on march.
CNY first day same as valentine,
dun tink i will need it liao,
same as the past decade.

sianzz, when is payday?
I wan the $$$ soon...
Will be idling at home these few days.
Blog again on 'i duno when'

2010-01-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

Just updating, very long nvr update.

So I started working in ntuc.
todays my second day,
already pissed with 2 ppl,
firstly, the bossy ahneh,
ask mi do new things when i still not done with current stuffs,
secondly, the 'er ren xing gao zhuang'(or wadever)Small Cloud,
Anyhow blame ppl nia, worked with her today,
Ask question oso cant ar! -.-

Another prob at work is...
i am a 'xiao jie' called by old folks,
TODAY EVEN KENA CALLED 'AUNTIE'
lucky youngter and adults with good eyesight call mi 'xiao di'
Tail(or maybe not)and sideburn long = zhar bo? wad is this!!??
Work is good, get paid and exercise at the same time.
Tmr is wed, my off day! will be going bugis.

Next week is sian to the max...
Working time: 10pm to 7am
Yawns de lor.
Blog agn when i free,
working le, dun have much time play comp.

2010-01-19T20:09:00.002+08:00

How many days of suffering has it been now?

Very sian today,
woke up nth to watch.
So i went jogging around pasir ris,
Jogging alone is saddenning,
its not a funny snny day today.
Rained halfway.
so I ran home to blog about this.

Tmr will probly go bedok karaoke or wadever,
hope to sing out loud,
try to make myself give up.
Thing always turn opp the way i wan it to.

Blog again sometime.

2010-01-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

Blogging? yea, Blogging!

Today went to get a hairdo,
spent half my day in there,
damn tired now, wanna sleep le,

Also have submitted my poly choice,
1st choice - T01 Business
2nd choice - S71 Business administration
and blah blah, forgot all le -.-
Hope get my first choice, hehe,
all my 12 choices are to TP and SP,
so I wun go into RP de,
Either I eneter TP, SP or ITE.
Thats it for today, bloody tired,
Blog again soon.

2010-01-12T00:34:00.002+08:00

Here it is, Finally,

Got my O's results already,
was happy about it,
L1R4 - 14 points
L1R5 - 19 points
Able to enter most of the courses,
Now, I choose the course,
Not the course choose me,
Woohoo, too overjoyed.

On the other hand,
I wonder if I can see her agn,
It's easy, it's near my house,
But I'd rather not,
Once im in poly, I probly dun wan
and will not have time to tink about it anymore.

Funny day, Funny face ,Funny place,
Blog agn soon

2010-01-08T16:44:00.002+08:00

Blooooging again,

Went cycling at pasir ris park ytd,
Refresh memory on how to ride a bike,
This time I nvr sufer injury form bike gears,
no scratches at all,

Started to watch Kamen Rider W.
Henshin!, lol
Very boring at home,
maybe going to SP and TP tmr.

Blog agn when I not sian.

2010-01-01T23:51:00.002+08:00

Blogging agn,

Yesterday went countdown with frens,
Dunno y go orchard to countdown,
else I think I would go marina,
But its still fun as its not about the place,
but the people around you,

However the place instead of the usual sg ppl,
Wat I saw is a Black Parade,
zzz, sianz de lor,
but after all that shit,
went home.

Today is 1st day of 2010,
A fresh new year,
I hate ccss,
I hate the happennigs there,
I hate going to eastpoint,
I hate going ehub already,
I hope i can make it to TP or SP,
make new frens,
while still have contact with current frens,

Its the last one minutes of today,
Blog agn soon.

2009-12-31T13:57:00.002+08:00

Blogging again here,

Yesterday went out 2E4 people to Sentosa,
Walked until leg pain,
Played some games(lame de but not offending ar)
So abit sian after all that
then went vivo to eat,
then went home, nth much.

Later gonna go out again,
Gonna go countdown.

Soon, it'll be 2010,
all the bad things that happen on 2009,
will try to forget them soon,
But on the take O's result day,
dunno wan how le,
mus 'ninja' my way into the school le,

2009-12-30T00:10:00.002+08:00

Been quite long since I last update,

Hopefully able to go on 2E4 gathering tmr,
but got something on,
trying to delay it till next week,
1.30 at EP, sianzz, nid wake up so early,
But I hope its fun tmr.

Thursday wanna go countdown,
Hope got people willing to go with me,

Short blogging, gonna sleep now.

2009-12-23T11:54:00.002+08:00

I'm here bloggin

This week will probably nvr go out,
Stayed home whole week,pok gai le

Soo...Its been almost a month,
Since 21st Nov,
the last day I sms her,
Its all still fresh in my mind,
As if it jus happened ytd,
Even though I noe its hopeless,
even though it wouldn't happen as I wanted,
I still am not able to forget it all.

Anyway, as i am typing it now,
My keyboard typing skill is improving,
While my pen writing skill is beggining to suck.
Hahas, a fake laughter,
I'm gonna blog again other time.

2009-12-22T00:13:00.002+08:00

I'm here blogging again,
dun really bother with the date and time liao,
cux I nvr blog regularly,

Sooo...I managed to bought the plush,
Its at suntec the maple event,
hope i dun turn up on tv again,
Jus like that when im working at downtown east,

And...the next day go out with parents,
go bball hunting for the best price,
Bought a Adidas PREP Basketball,
the words got golden lining. ^_^
Looks like the Hot Shot drama use de,
they got sponsored by Adidas.
Thats y when I buy le then I look y so familiar.

Erm tahts all, nvr went out,
Pok Gai le, these few days,
Keep going out,
leeching on my parents $10 per outing,
I wanna work, but no proper job,
Damn it la, i hate leeching on them,
I wanna stop depending on them,
Cux i wanna earn my own money,
The plush and bball are bought,
with my whole salary when I work at downtown east

Well gonna blog again someday. ^_^

2009-12-18T01:07:00.002+08:00

Updating Blog.

Tuesday went out to meet frens,
celebrate mx bday,
went out early to shop for the things for picnic,
shop alot of things still ok,
but the prob is no time,
mus use run de, walao,

Managed to make it on time for the shuttle bus,
took the shuttle bus to Marina Barriage,
i tot its some kind of park,
but its a water works place.zzz

Tok, tok, play, play, eat, eat,
Then run around then it started to rain,
went indoors then mx fren trick her into going toilet,
then ask her another fren take out bday cake and surprise her,
WTF, suddenly security come then kao pei kao bu,
say candle will catch fire, spoiler sia,
so mx blew the candle then blah blah,
then went to take shuttle bus bak,
then took mrt to Tamp say wan watch movie,
at first have 9 or so ppl,
reach Tamp the time left 6, some went home,
But I no energy le then I say dun wan watch ba,
then bt oso got smth on, so all go home le

Ytd, which is wednesday,
woke up early in the morning,
Rush to bedok mrt to meet bt and zw to go for job training,
the regular late-r Bt is late yet again,
But rush to lavender then run to Golden Mile Complex still can,
in the end nvr late, but even earlier than the starhub staff,
reach there, door no open then wait for awhile,
went in to wait for others that needs training oso,
The training is lame, jus tok cock and calculate the prices promo,
the promo is the cablevision or smth like tat,
The job is the exact same one that I got scammed by,
when i signed up for the cablevision.
So I decided not to work becux of many reasons,

Tmr gonna go bball at bt house,
Saturday gonna go Maple event at Suntec Tropics Atrium
hope they can meet arnd 8+ and camp,
Wanna buy my favourite limited edition plush,

Hmmm...wats it like to be treated very good,
I'm not used to being treated so kind and friendly,
I'm used to and want people to treat me cold and normally,
I'm used to being a loner, but i hate it,
Maybe I'm weird, and tats how I liked Her,
Maybe she's the first person who seem kind to me,
And tats why I like Her.
I'm not sure myself.
I noe its game over, so stop mentioning it,
Unless She clicks on the 'Restart' button

Blog again when I'm not lazy

2009-12-14T11:30:00.002+08:00

Ytd went out with parents and bro,
go to some new shopping mall called city square or smth like tat,
the shopping mall is totaly diff from the outside of it,
outside of the shopping mall is little india,zzz

Walk, walk, eat, eat,
then when want go home tat time,
parents say wan go mustafa, cux nvr go b4,
eeee, mustafa...
u say it they name it, they have all kinds of shit,
bought a sri lanka crab to steam it at home.
Lucky!! I saw a bball, Spalding brand, NBA Golden coulour de.
Then my parents say 'wah ,u wan exercise then i buy for u lor'
ands thats how they agreed to buy for me, but not from mustafa,
Mustafa de bball all lke rejected stock.
Gonna go sportslink to buy other time,
I oso notice a bball court near my house le,
can go there play ^_^

Today gonna go out with bt and zw go job interview,
for being a starhub promoter,
$8/hr, 6.30 to 9.30 from mon to fri
At bedok area but dunno where...
Normal rate lor...
Still can't find permanent job.

Blog agan some other time,
gonna leave house meet bt and zw le ^_^

2009-12-12T10:04:00.002+08:00

Today...
dunno how i wake up so early,
maybe cux of a sad dream.

Looking forward to the weekly release,
of 'Momo Love' and 'Hi My Sweetheart' tmr,
And dun forget 'Liar Game' Ep 5 Subbed

Today's sat, the next week of today,
Im gonna camp at maple event in the morning.XD

Sooo... this few days,
many psp game release.
Bleach Soul Carnival 2
Naruto Shippuuden Narutimate Accel 3
Gundam VS Gundam Next Plus

Started playing bleach,
very fun.
Lucky all the games release at correct timing,
Maple sian le, play psp.
So I got smth to drown myself in when Im down.

Today blog so early,
blog agn tonite if I got go outdoor later.

2009-12-10T14:08:00.002+08:00

Update Blog

Tuesday went to watch move with frens
Watched New Moon
Quite nice,
but watch halfway become comedy
Jacob = Tarzan

After that went too T1,
tried out the new DJ Max arcade machine
Dam fun, sure will go bak to play it,
Will be getting an IC Card on the next trip,

Ytd and Today did nth at home,
Never playe maple for quite long,
watching drama and anime now.

Will blog again when I feel like it. ^_^

2009-12-07T22:45:00.002+08:00

Just wanna update blog

Went BT house today,
did nth, play com,
watch tv
Cux Daniel forgot to bring bball.

Went home watch Momo Love ep8,
and started watching 'Hai Pai Tian Xin'
Veli nice show,

This post not Emo le ba...zzz
But all my previous post is wat I feel,
that I cant say out in words de ma.
But no matter wat, the blogskin is staying,
I shuang ma. Got cloud cloud de. ^_^

Blog agn other day.

2009-12-05T21:02:00.002+08:00

Today started working,
but the job last for 2 day nia,
today's my first day.

First time woke up 6.00,
I dun wake up so early in holidays de,
chiong all the way to downtown east bustop,
asked BT where is he,zzz
he stil sleeping,
Waited for him till 7.45 then assemble for job,

Job is $6.50/hr
The job is to incharge of game booths for some family carnival
At first quite fun , no ppl de,
Until arnd 11.00, all the parents with kids chiong in,
The freakin scorching hot sun made me get sun burn,zzz
Felt like a dead person till lunch break at 1.30
After lunch break, the sun went down,
Woots, not le hot so i hyped to work le.
Work~work~work

Nowadays, I realize there are many kids,
either they are ill-bred, retards or dun understand Eng.
All like crazy de, dun wan talk abt it le.

Wa seh, when work is over and pack things,
I saw a girl VERY look like 'u noe hu'
got allibi, BT oso saw.
This time de is look like, not resemble.
Zzz, she oso work the same job,
Wonder why nvr notice her in the morning,
Onli notice her when going home,
maybe cux BT go bluff mi say he saw her at the booth,
Made me think abt wat to do when i saw her,
I kept thinking abt her then on...
Shld I say sorry and avoid the truth,
say hi like buddy buddy or act blur...

Btw, i got the busary awards ^_^
Got free $$ from govt.woots

Blog again tmr,
Tmr is my second and also last day of work,
Hope she jus pop by at the booth,
or smth like tat,
Probability is low.

2009-12-03T00:39:00.002+08:00

This was posted on 2nd Dec but became 3rd Dec, over 00.00 agn

Just wanna update blog,
did nth particular these few days,
Played maple,
But majority is watching drama,
Woots, started watching Momo Love,
kena addicted now liao,
watched till episode 7,
Can't wait for the next weekly release.

It's oso 3rd Dec le,
New Moon in theatres now,
Wanna go watch,
but no job = no money to watch

Still finding job.
Considering wan to go popular work anot.
After HY say about his experience...zzz

Still...haiz
I say to stop thinking about stuff,
but I can't seem to forget,
Anyone who saw this and noe wats going on,
Can give me a solution on wat to do?
Pls tag the solution,
Even if ur a random stranger.
I'm a dumbass with things like this,
Very confuse on wat to do since 9th Oct.

Hey Gal,if u saw this,
Tag mi if u fee like it,
I dun wan to get my hopes too high,
But i just hope...

Everyday is torturing.
Blog agn other time.
(T_T)..zzz

2009-12-01T00:15:00.002+08:00

This was posted on 30th nov, but over 00.00 so its 1st Dec

Ytd did nth at home,
Watched Liar Game S2, Japan drama
the games are so tricky,
normally ppl would jus despair.

Today is finally December,
Went out with frens to Kbox
Ask me go E!Hub,
I say dun wan go gelare the moment we meet,
so all say ok.

Went into Kbox and went 'High'
Sing sing then come out.

Come out le is the worst part,
all wan go buy ice cream,
purposely go gelare somemore,
Chy~Bye~ar~~
I wait outside, dun wan go in,
Then all go buy ice cream,
come out liao then eat finish,

Heres the worst part,
Suddenly all gangbang me,
Go try drag me into gelare,
Tried to run away, but failed.
Shit~!!
Then how?
talk peacefully then ok le.
Walked at a super fast pace out of E!Hub
Then went home.

FUCK!FUCK!FUCK!
Why wan make me rmb everything,
when all's going fine already,
Forgetting stuff day by day,
GOOD GAME LA!
Sian La, blog agn some other day.T.T

2009-11-28T01:35:00.003+08:00

This was posted on 27th Nov, but over 00.00 so it became 28th

Yesterady played Maple till evening,
Drowning myself in it yet again.

Evening went to my aunt's house for BBQ
Do nth, played maple with my cousin,
Mapling yet again.
My cousin's cousin also went to his house,
Saw one of them that resembles her,
Chua dao, shouldn't have gone there,
Made me unble to forget the things i want to,
~~FUCK~~,that whole night was them spoiled,
~Alchohol~Alchohol~
Went home then sleep.

This morning wake up,
Had a dream, feelng down and sad
Dreams are the opposite of Reality is what ppl say,
then Mapled the whole day,
When can i start work?
Not sure got vacant anot...
I wanna put ~~Stupid~~ adv on ppl's house

That's all nth much to blog.
My blog is boring de ma...

2009-11-26T01:00:00.002+08:00

This was posted on the midnight of Wednesday, but over 00.00 so its Thursday

Did not update yesterday
Yesterday went out with frens to slack at Bugis
wondering why i kept going to Bugis...
Walked around and went to Iluma
Played JuBeat at the arcade,seems easy
but it was quite challenging,
I tried lvl 9 songs with Daniel and Bt,
but 3 people play still fail...epic failure
evening time meet everybody,
too many to name out, boys and girls.

Met up and went to eat steamboat
At first, it seem nice and cooling,
but quite cramp, squeeze abit wun die >.<
After 30 min in there,
I became SBH, SteamBenHo
Everyone complaining about the heat,
the lousy air-con not power enough -.-

Eat finish le, mosty ppl went home
Me and Daniel got addicted to JuBeat and went to play agn
Played le then 'gan yuan' go home

Today, woke up early to meet at bedok,
Planned to go cycling at ECP,
but then alot ppl can't make it,
In the end played basketball at RJ house.
Played basketball and decide who is which Hot Shot char,
lol, did some idiotic 'dance' on the 'warm up'
Follow the Hot Shot music and 'dance' like retards ^_^

All tired le, sit down tok crap abt Maple
then continue play real bball match,
Mi, Bt, Daniel VS Wx,Yy,Zw
We were pwned by Zw,the dong fang chong,
Lucky RJ came in to help us, but still lose
Tok abit more crap abt Maple,
Then went home, nth more to blog abt ^_^

2009-11-24T00:18:00.002+08:00

This was posted on Monday, but midnight so, it Tuesday

Nothing much too blog about
Time flies past fast,
without someone in my mind

Drowning myself in Maple to forget
Whole day play maple and watch anime nia.
Anime is my Favourite stuff.

Just downloaded a new game
'Rockman EXE Operate Shooting Star' very fun =D
Talk about stars and constellations are also my favourite
But I missed the meteor rain previously.
Looking at the sky with stars makes me feel at ease.
Quiet places are always the best,
with no one around to bother you
That explains my love for the song.

Looking forward to Steamboat tmr
At bugis nearby,
the whole street of steamboat restaurant

Woots, thats the end
Blog again sometime soon tmr,
If I am not lazy

2009-11-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

This was posted on 21st Nov night

There's nothing much to blog about.
Never go outdoors.

Except that it has already ended now.
Its been made clear to me and her now.
Sad and Happy at the same.
Sad is an obvious emotion I would have.
Happy that my mind feels lighter,
no need to wait for msg to appear on my phone,

One person manage to be in BenHo's Guiness Record Book
1st person I like
1st to make so Emo in life
1st to make me Happy
Made me understand that smths are just not meant to be
1st time my HP bill exceed for msging too much.XD

Thanks for the memories,
even thought they weren't so great.
They will always be just another fragment,
of my forgotten memories,
just like the primary sch days I had,

Still can be frens?
I'm not sure,
but the most is a 'hi' and a 'bye' to you.
That's all for today!
People! Cherish the one's around u before it's too late.

2009-11-20T19:59:00.002+08:00

This was posted on 21st nov 2009

Just like any other boring day,
never went out with frens.
stayed home playing maple.

Decided to call Gelateria Venezia.
Lawls, tell mi no more part time vacancy,
full time somemore must work for 1 year...

Its dinner, 'da bao' subway,
subway's motto is '~Subway Eat Fresh~'
but my sandwich no vege, all meat XD
actually have la, have onion nia.

Maybe wanna go Anime Festival Asia 09 tmr,
but think about the long queue last year, sian diao
Plus this year I dunno wan go with who.

Wanna go go food fair this few days.
Hope someone wants to go with me, especially her.
Hope she's free ^_^

The timing that I post is usually midnight,
so the day shown is a little off.
Good nite to anyone who saw this.
Waiting all day and night ,even when sleeping,
for a text msg to appear on my phone...

2009-11-19T01:26:00.002+08:00

Today woke up in the morning and played computer till evening,
went to meet Daniel and Yy at White Sands mcdonald then travel to Bugis AGAIN,

This time for real, asked around for job in Bugis le,
Found an ice cream shop called Venezia Gelato Italiano,
took down their number, gonna call them tmr

Then just like Deja Vu, we walked to Suntec again by foot.
Passed by a drinks shop beside the Star Factory arcade,
ordered a 'hotdog with tuna mayo' then go and give mi 'tuna mayo sandwich' -.-
Tried to apply job at Otaku House but the uniform is cosplay, which i would fail at
Also tried Gelare at Suntec, but not hiring cux closing shop le, its late that time.

Went to Downtown East to dee siao grad nite fren, after much 'toking'
everyone went home, so did I, did not went supper with Yy, daniel, WX, YueHan.

2009-11-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

This is my first post, nothing too special

Went for the lame clb exams which lasted 30 mins.
Made me wake up so early for something so meaningless.

Went out with BT,ZW and XC.
Haiz,ORGANIZER ar...want go where de?
Went to Bugis in the end, walked up and down the whole Bugis few times
then ki siao go walk from bugis to suntec and walked back -.-
Suntec have ducktour jobs, helped them asked then went through lots of shit to reach the applicants office. In the end dun wan to apply.

Went to bugis back again to have Mcdonald,then look for HY,HP and JM at bugis street.Walked around and back to bugis junction...

We then decided to go to T1 for HY's sake and
he then became the happiest man alive in 10 mins

The group is 'disbanded' and me and HY went to E!hub, hoping I could get my Kbox job.Sadly, Kbox needs 17 year old above.Went to the first floor of E!hub and was very dissappointed.(dun wan to mention it)It was the worst day ever as I planned to go E!hub early but was delayed till night,even worse ,dissappointed...

Went home walking through the eerie bus station and 'END of the DAY'